I remember I was flying to Dubai last year on this day
and you were upset that I wont be there for your birthday.
I planned to visit you on my way to the airport around 12am,
but I couldn’t as the flight got preponed
and I had to be there asap.
I promised to get chocolates and accessories for you.
But when I came back I pretended that I got nothing
and you looked quite disappointed.
2 days later I neatly placed the gifts at your desk at work when you went for lunch.
Post lunch you sat with me
and almost fought for being so lame
and not getting anything for you.
Almost cried too on account of the fact that I don’t love you enough.
And I acted indifferent but couldn’t help but smile inside.
And then when you went to sit you saw the gifts and your reaction was epic.
The timing was perfect.
I remember making a video of it, but sadly I cant find it now.
I remember, you were so excited and happy.
I remember that day vividly.
I remember that you loved gifts, notes, birthdays and everything related.
Wish we could bake a cake together today
but never mind...
I miss you...
And I will love you,
~ Batman 🖤
My desires in a relationship have changed over time.
I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me,
I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out.
I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me,
I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place.
I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete.
I am complete without you.
But with you, I want to be so much better.
I want to be stronger with you.
I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually.
I don’t need you, but I really want you.
And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this is how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot.
PC: @samareyaz ✨
I am speaking to you, writing to you, to let you know that you are not alone.
To let you know that I, too, feel empty at times no matter how many blessings I have received.
No matter how good it's been.
I don't know what it is that is meant to fill this void, this starved heart.
At times, I feel like I am spiralling down this dark well to only greet the ocean below, one I know I am not suitable for.
I don't have the strength to swim.
I am exhausted from trying to figure things out, from trying to live up to what others want me to be.
So you're not alone, you never were, not physically, emotionally or spiritually.
You have people here with you who care.
People who are willing to give you your space when you are trying to figure out the stars in your head, and that's a blessing whether you know it or not.
You are never quite alone no matter how far you go and you should never regret opening up to people who know what it's like to be in your shoes.
~ #rmdrake 💖