Most days I'm piqued with this constant identity crisis - that I represent a professional when I barely feel like an adult (or look like I even graduated college). That patients rely on me to diagnose, treat, and take away their pain is an overwhelming privilege to me. Despite my namesake, I don't talk about my life as a dentist much because my passions are so varied, but it's the most important component of my day, my week, my year, and I'll always be honoured to be a provider. By the way you can see my ceramic braces and I'm totally ok with being a nerd again and not getting date for the next 6 months 😹
In the confusion and the aftermath, you are my signal fire .
I dabbled part time in photography in college, collaborated with a myriad of models and with @caisafs to build my portfolio in makeup & fashion/portrait. Then dentistry consumed my life and I neglected all my hobbies also including illustrating, painting, writing, web design, and pretty much all things crafty that defined who I was. When I was first starting without a model, I was the subject and I practiced shooting and editing on myself. 3 diplomas later (and absolute denial that I will ever be a student again), I'm back to where I started (jack of all trades, master of none), determined to find my right-sided brain again.
Returning has honestly been a bit of a struggle : between the worst jet lag of my life that lasted longer than my departure, and the indecision about where I want to make my home. I came to Milwaukee a year ago on an impulsive leap of faith that failed me. Frankly I create happiness anywhere, but I was mistaken to believe that people are similar everywhere in the world. Here, I am out of place. While I don't regret my career choice, sometimes I do feel submitted to a life of stagnancy and immobility, when the core of my existence aches for something grander. Or at least build my home somewhere I can feel less adventitious. Either way, for now I can be content traveling in spontaneous bursts and hope I can meet people along the way that will change my cynical mind #firstworldproblems (but how cute is this pikachu latte? Sadly not mine though 😹)
When I was 15 years old I met a girl online from an anime art community, where we'd spend our high school Saturday nights drawing together on live boards 🤓15 years later, I'm seeing @lucidskyart in the flesh for the first time in this magical land called Harajuku (missing @tornandpolished - who is here in spirit!)