I’m in a constant loop of pain and hearing the same thing at every appointment is getting more and more difficult. My neurosurgeon said that he doesn’t want to mess with my shunt again because I’m doing better(at least when it comes to the serve “spiking headaches” that I use to get) now I’m left with the dull constant headache that started in the 6th grade. I’m so grateful that since then I’ve had relief from it for certain periods of time thanks to the operations done by man and the healing of God above but I’m ready for it to be gone for good.
Right now though my fight isn’t the physical one but the mental one instead, the doctor looked at me as I fought back tears in his office today and said “I can see you’re depressed by it.” So yeah, my headache is still there but right now I’m just trying to convince myself that I’m not going to drown even though it feels like I might. I’m okay... and that’s what I’m choosing to focus on. <3
I should say... Valentines Day can be a really miserable time for a lot of people... I was one of those people once upon a time! So... Happy Valentines Day to the lovers who are living their fairytale... hold on to it and fight for it always! and Happy Valentine’s Day to those who have not yet found their true loves... don’t lose hope your fairytale could be just about to begin (and you’ll be just fine loving yourself and your life either way!) Spread love today... there’s simply not enough of it in this world! #bekind#spreadlove#spreadhappiness#youreokay#fairytale#love#lovelife#happyvalentinesday
I truly believe that the love/energy that you put out into the world is never wasted. We have all been overwhelmed, frustrated, tired, heartbroken, anxious, or lonely at some point in life and it can be hard to pull yourself out of those feelings on your own. I, however, am amazingly lucky enough to have a baller support system in my life to turn to whenever I’m stuck in a rut.
So, to pay it forward, in case no one has told you lately, I’ll say it now:
I know planning is stressful, but your wedding will be a beautiful day, I swear. You will totally meet the deadline and the client will be happy - you got this. Try to be patient and practice self care, and your body and your mind will heal. Stop doubting yourself, you’re a great mom, and your kiddo is going to grow up happy and loved. Your broken heart will heal and you will be a stronger person for letting yourself be vulnerable for once.
And last but not least, it’s okay to not be okay. But in time, I know, everything will be coming up Milhouse. #thanksforreading#youreokay#wereokay#galentinesday#spreadlove#streetart#newyork#everythingscomingupmilhouse#peptalk#allyouneedislove#yougotthis#inspiration#holdeachotherup
Being confident enough to share a photo without makeup. Being okay with being told I’m pretty without it. These are feats I cannot explain away in words. Why are we programmed to believe that we shouldn’t think we are pretty?? Or smart? Or strong? That we have to be TOLD for it to be real, but then when we are told we are supposed to deny it. #imokay#youreokay#beokaywithyourself
It gets easier & then it gets okay.
Then it feels like freedom.
Just because the change is hard
doesn’t mean the change is wrong.
Change IS hard. Be gentle with yourself. & in the words of @dulceruby “Sometimes you just need to disconnect & enjoy your own company.” Yoga TONIGHT @catamountarts 7-8p!
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