#spaziergang#ist#noch#nicht#so#weit#Vom Eise befreit sind Strom und Bäche
Durch des Frühlings holden, belebenden Blick,
Im Tale grünet Hoffnungsglück;
Der alte Winter, in seiner Schwäche,
Zog sich in rauhe Berge zurück.
Von dort her sendet er, fliehend, nur
Ohnmächtige Schauer körnigen Eises
In Streifen über die grünende Flur.
Aber die Sonne duldet kein Weißes,
Überall regt sich Bildung und Streben,
Alles will sie mit Farben beleben;
Fernes Echo, der Wind 🍃 kann dort bleiben, ich werde mich nämlich hier herumtreiben. 👭
Weit, weit, weg weht der Wind, ich weiß es, 👑 ich bin ja kein Kind! 👶
Der Wind weht ins Gesicht 👧, das ist seine Plicht. ✋ #fernes#echo#echos#weit#weg
Landed myself back in ER today. I actually went to my dr suspecting a case of pneumonia or a chest infection. But she also wanted to test for pulmonary Embolisms which is a blood clot in the lung. This was to b a simple xray n blood test. She wanted me to do a ECG on my heart before i left but while i was waiting my left arm suddenly when numb and tingly then my hand changed colour. Scary. My thought was shit the clots moved. She took me back into her room@n ran some tests. Then sent me to queensland xray. But when i got in there and found out they were gunna inject me me iodine I completely flipped out. Broke down, full on panic attack. I called the dr. I couldnt do it. So the nurse walked over n came and got me. She brought me back n did the ecg. But while i was waiting they informed me they had called an ambulance and i needed to go to ER. They immediately did the blood test and xray. Xray clear, blood test to check for a clot was not clear. So i had to do the friggen cpt scan with iodine injected in my arm. I shit my pants i was so scared. I was trembling when they put me on the ct scanner bed. But it HAD to be done. It was risk a reaction to the iodine or risk dying if its a blood clot. So i went into a meditation on the table and got thru it. Fuck it was hard afterwards. My anxiety was on high alert for an reaction. I didn’t have one thank the lord. Then the dr came in and said i didnt have a clot. But my heart rate had been high since 10:40 (at one stage it hit 140. Yikes). The (cute as all hell) scottish dr ordered some saline to calm my heart down and i was good to go. And yet again the culprit is fucking heartburn. Cunt of an illness. #anxiety#panicattacks#panicdisorder#ER#bloodclots#shortofbreath#xrays#cpt#recovery#gerd#heartburn#possiblymildasthma#recovery#weit#ineedanswers