Here’s a secret behind the smile. Something I’ve never spoken up about. I’ve hardly ever told anyone this.
I was the girl. The girl who was targeted. Bullied. Harassed. Not in high school. Not in college. But in my very first corporate job.
I never reported anything, but I came home crying almost daily. My stomach was sick with turmoil every morning when I woke up. There were near daily occurrences that would be considered a hostile work environment. I didn’t know how to stand up for myself, and no one else ever did either. I felt no one had my back. I went to work every. single. day. in fear for nearly 5 years.
I struggled daily to get out of bed in the morning. Most of the time I was late to work because of the resistance I felt going in each day. I remember thinking “what is the point of life if this is adulthood?” Deeply depressed, I continued on, assuming that this was simply what to expect in the corporate world. “Teammates”that were insecure, upper management that was completely toxic and everyone knew it, yet did nothing. I cried myself to sleep more nights than I can count.
If this sounds relatable, I BEG you, please report it. Know that you are NOT alone. Tell someone. Quit the shitty job. NO SALARY OR BENEFITS ARE WORTH YOUR SOUL. I am here if you need me. No one deserves to live in fear.
YOU are worthy. You are radiant beyond belief. You deserve happiness. Never let anyone belittle you or make you think otherwise.
And despite it all, when I reflect on it, the hostility pushed me into seeking that stability inside myself. In the turbulence I turned to my inner world and found a strength I never knew existed.
It feels right to finally tell the story, to bleed the last of the poison from my veins. I thank the ones who inflicted pain upon me. Not for hurting me, but for unconsciously showing me the contrast that made me rise up. Those who belittled me and made me question who I was. Because through everything, I found out what I was made of.
And no one can take that away.
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Weekends with Lolita: We turned around 52 cars full of families today, and one fully packed double-decker tourist bus. The tourists giving us the thumbs up as the big red bus turned around and put Seaquarium in it’s rear-view mirror.
But the real payoff during these weekend protests is the cars full of families and other tourists who can be seen reading the protest signs, seeing people protesting. All of them had to drive through our protest line. Many were obviously embarrassed by our presence. Too uncomfortable to make eye contact with us. Protesters make people uncomfortable. It forces them to think. They didn’t come here to think. They came here for mindless entertainment. They will go inside and take a seat in the Whale Stadium. They will see Lolita preforming stupid tricks in a small pool of water. They will look at Lolita with a critical eye now - something they definitely would not have done had they not driven through the protesters and listened to their megaphones, read their messages. They will have to think and decide whether or not Lolita is actually being mistreated. They might wonder if she could actually be retired in her home waters successfully. The families will return to their cars and while driving home they will talk about the protesters, talk about Lolita. Children will ask their parents uncomfortable questions. Parents will have to answer those questions. All of this will serve to educate parents and children alike. I doubt if they will buy another ticket to Seaquarium, SeaWorld, or any other dolphin abusement park. That’s the big payoff for us. It’s not just about the 52 cars and the big red tourist bus we turned away today. It’s also about the cars that drove through the spectacle of protesters and received an education. Every protest for Lolita is worthwhile. I’m glad I attended. I’ll do it again and again every chance I get. #RetireLolita#Blackfish#EmptyTheTanks#LummiNation#dolphinproject