On another hand, the learning process to memorizing a piece can also be a pain in the ass. Somehow this movement is not memorable to my muscle memory. So all I can do to help it is play it, over and over and over and over. Here is gigue of the 995 Bach lute suite. Enjoy!
I struggled with content creation for my entire entrepreneurial life. It used to literally hurt me.
It was made worse by the fact that I had no idea that I was profoundly gifted up until last year. Before that, I had my writing critiqued by well-meaning but non-gifted people who were incapable of following, much less understanding, the intensity and complexity of a gifted mind.
I used to spend six hours a day struggling to translate my native thought modality into language and then slaving over the flow, structure and wording. I wanted my works to fit the standard that non-gifted educators, editors, coaches and friends drove into me—Polished, professional, easy to read and simple to understand.
I was forced to operate at a fraction of my natural cognitive speed, depth, breadth and complexity for an audience who still could not relate anyway.
My lifelong experience of writing in such a way scarred me very deeply and left me with debilitating dread and anxiety around all public writing.
When it came time to setup Intrepid Integrity’s blog to prepare for launch, I felt the same old creeping tentacles of fear crawling across my mind and my body. “You need to present as perfect or no one will sign up. You need to write perfect content. It must look good, sound polished and be sterling and no less or you will be shamed.” I struggled for weeks. Got really sick of it too. “I’m so over this!” It was the same old narrative again, “They won’t like me if I’m not…” I setup the blog on Sunday and on Monday I sat down to write, fingers poised over the keyboard. I had the classic blank page terror. It lasted all of ten seconds before I psychologically banged my fist down on my desk, “This is ridiculous! Okay, so what do I fear?” “Imperfection.” Cue huge eye roll. “Okay, so how do I get over it?” “Don’t be perfect.” Yah I know… intuition… “Riiight… so how do I do that?” “Drop the fear.” Just write. Right. Just write, right? Right.
I’m not here to present a “perfect” mirage. I’m here to be me.
If I present what I believe, no, correction, what I have been socio-culturally conditioned to believe I should be, rather than who and what I am, as an entrepreneur who runs