I know @henrysdiary is blowing up, because he’s been taking some sizzling couples/wedding heaters! But I want you all to know that I’m his number one fan! (Okay, maybe number two, because I feel like his cute hubby probably beat me for the number one slot...) Nonetheless! I LOVE YOU, HENRY! You are so talented and I love watching you thrive! Thanks for making me look like some kind of model!
I was so inspired by everyone’s Spring equinox celebrations yesterday that I went out and bought some daffs for the house. Coffee, flowers and sunshine - a pretty good start to Spring. How has your Spring started?
You can cut all the flowers but you cannot keep spring from coming.
And that's my hope on this the most non-spring-like first day of spring I remember (more than 20cm of snow outside :)
Happy spring everyone!
The past few days have been full in so many ways. Heavy heart, confusion, anger, FEAR from the news of the UNJUST death of Marielle Franco - an exemplary activist who used her voice for good and those who she spoke against did what they *thought* would silence her message, brought up so much sadness around a fallen sHero + fear around being seen and using one's voice. Only amplifying fear, anger + sadness from recent shootings that had me out for the count earlier. Compounded with news of an ailing family member + all the to dos of life. However, in the midst of the ick, actual miracles broke through. It reminded me that even when you're in the dark, seek the light and there you shall find HOPE.⠀
Like how in the midst of the injustice my dear sister @i_am_boldacious is actually in the trenches working on a solution and safe space for women activist, leaders, healers, seekers and seers to commune, be held, be seen and BE SAFE which is so, so needed. Definitely watch that space for the miracle that is unfolding there. ⠀
Or how one "to do" was to help plan a baby shower and create the games for the event. Well 'Miracles Do Come True' and the baby was actually BORN DURING THE SHOWER! Mama to be, actually never made it to the event, she went to the hospital and the baby shower played out more like a watch party as we texted pictures of the party in full swing, getting labor updates + cheering mama on the whole time. By the end of the party the happy healthy baby had arrived and we got to spend time with a human that hadn't been there that morning. #BLESSING ⠀
The list of LIGHT that has come through goes on and on but I just want to leave you with this. A) don't be afraid of the dark. Darkness, shadows and voids all come with their own gifts. Seek out those gems as diligently as you go for your goals. B) When you're ready look for the light, it's always there and will illuminate your path to possibility and positivity. At least for me, it's from that space I can then be a blessing and miracle to myself and for someone else. ⠀
okay, let’s talk insecurities. we all struggle with them on the daily and try to find ways to cope. some days you can be an ocean. you feel big, strong, adventurous, and calm. other days you can feel like you’re drowning. lately i’ve felt the drowning aspect. one of my many goals in 2018 is to cultivate a healthier way of thinking about + viewing my own insecurities. i recognize this is easier said then done. so i’m starting small. one of my insecurities happens to be my appearance, especially my face. so naturally i thought: well i need headshots for class anyways, why not have them taken. lemme tell you, scrolling through the images i feel a little more confident + not in a vain way. but more of a, this is my face. my smile. my freckles. this is the crazy strand of hair that always sticks up. each of these things created by the One who loves me. and with that i can accept the things i can’t change. and embrace them. and this takes time - it won’t happen overnight. a HUGE thank you to @anarosario.b for capturing me and helping me feel comfortable and all Beyoncé (Sasha Fierce) your friendship, kindness, grace, and creativity is SO inspiring - oh and while getting headshots it’s always a plus to have the best in the freakin’ midwest (DAVEEE) come along and jump in a few. dave, i appreciate your willingness to come alongside me in this crazy adventure and pick me back up regardless of how many times i fall down. you’re the BEST friend an awkward + small individual like me could ask for. so instagram, this is a start. let’s remember to be kind, lift each other up, and step away from things such as social media from time to time to live life with the beautiful people around us. -love, cal.
“Hiking - "I don't like either the word or the thing. People ought to saunter in the mountains - not hike! Do you know the origin of that word 'saunter?' It's a beautiful word. Away back in the Middle Ages people used to go on pilgrimages to the Holy Land, and when people in the villages through which they passed asked where they were going, they would reply, 'A la sainte terre,' 'To the Holy Land.' And so they became known as sainte-terre-ers or saunterers. Now these mountains are our Holy Land, and we ought to saunter through them reverently, not 'hike' through them." - John Muir
I spent my morning in bed, drinking coffee, and working before my little man woke up! A great way to start the day. I was thinking about something the past few days...
Everyone of us lives a busy and fast paced life. I always hear phrases like I’m too busy or I don’t have the time, I wish I had more time. When I saw this quote yesterday it really spoke to me. “Too busy is a myth. People make time for things that are really important to them.” How true is that?!
If something is truly important or you enjoy it you make the time for it. We all have the same amount of hours in a day. Prioritize and choose what you do with your time wisely.
Today I FEEL🌟GRATITUDE🌟 for taking this time off (almost a month ago my daughter arrived home), I’m grateful for slowing down and not taking things TOO SERIOUSLY, but most of all I’m grateful for those experiences no one will erase from our memories ❤
☝️Today I returned to my WHY trusting my process.
☀No matter what happens tomorrow, we had TODAY⭐