The beauty of the blossom. The process of growth. Of loss. Of new Life. Of seasons.
I’ve spent a long time contemplating how I would talk about my (our) behind the scenes from the last eleven months or so. The secret places protected and covered. I am so mindful of what I share and when. I’m so cautious to sit with The Lord, to heal, to speak and be with the one who protects my heart and steadies my feet.
Meeting Timothy- will forever be one of the greatest blessings I will ever know. He is an amazing man and our story has been nothing short of exciting, challenging, adventurous and fun.
Now that I’ve had time to sit- to be- in one place that I’m (supposed) to stay for a little while- I’m reflective on the journey. Meeting the love of my life. Watching him leave. Doing a long distance relationship. Planning a wedding while he was deployed. Hardly speaking to him for six months. Visiting Scotland. Moving twice by myself to foreign places in a four month span. Going through our first holiday season together- without anything but an air mattress our computers and each other. And- in the middle of that- walking through one of the greatest challenges I’ve ever faced.
Miscarriage. Loss. Deep sorrow.
Everything was new. Everything was happening so fast but it fell into this amazingly messy world of physical trial and emotional anguish.
It’s different for everyone. The process. The pain-emotionally and physical. But I’ve found it’s so rarely spoken of. I heard of the statistics, I received all of the looks of sympathy from medical professionals. I was encouraged with stories of all those who conceive after. I sat in it. I sobbed uncontrollably at the most unexplainable times. My body reacting to what was happening to me. I let it hurt. I radically declared what wasn’t as though it was. I praised the very parts of my body that felt like they were failing me. I mourned. I felt every conflicting emotion and clung to truth in ways I never had.
But in the middle of an extremely stressful season I pushed into an unavoidable place of distraction. (I mean-we literally were moving across the world.)
This process has been extremely harsh on me ⬇️⬇️⬇️
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