this is a photo i took in march of 2010. while it is usually a good thing to "let go", i let go a little too much around the time i took this photo. i mean, i don't regret it. it made for the most spiritual experience i've ever had... an entire spring and part of summer where i let go so much i was on another planet. in letting go, i let go of the reality that is brainwashed into all of us and i came to understand things that most people don't. people take acid and shrooms and DMT and peyote to try to gain the kind of insight i found just by letting go the way i did. but people thought everything i was saying and doing was crazy.... like, i swam to an island and spent the night there just a month after i took this photo. it was a warm spring but it was freezing at night and i was wet and technically you could say in the middle of a psychosis, but hey, we don't have to get technical. haha. plus i don't see what i did as being crazy. i think the world is crazy. anyway, my point is that i got locked up for 1/4 of a year because the stuff i was saying and doing was making people uncomfortable and scared because i was too free and my spirit is ridiculously strong, so ever since then, i've been scared to let go again. i have kept myself trapped in my apartment for neatly a decade... i mean, i do leave the apartment but not usually for long and i rarely ever let go, but i am working on letting go again... in a more balanced way hopefully. i think with stability and support, if i let go, i could be capable of such incredible things. it's goals. anyway. that's all
11.18 a day i will remember for the rest of my life. It is incredible to think things happen at specific moments in our lives. Sometimes our minds and our hearts are open to the universe and we can pick up on things and notice things we normally wouldn’t. If you believe in something long enough to not give up hope you can discover what you have been looking for your entire life. One day a person will come into your life and teach you how things should be. They will love you in ways you didn’t even know were possible. They will support you and appreciate you in ways no one has before. They will accept you for every ounce of your being for who you are. You will find a friend, a lover, a supporter and a companion all wrapped up into one person. And With every minute of every day that passes from that moment on you will be building something that has been worth waiting for, something worth all the hardships you have had to go through to get to that specific time with the correct person. They will choose you as you will choose them and you will deserve them as much as they deserve you. for once everything in the world will make sense. Everything will happen in time if you just believe.
Repost from @to_outdoors_and_beyond using @RepostRegramApp - #15Outside was needed this morning, after some yoga practice I headed out for a plod/run in the beautiful Forest of Dean. Just what was needed to reset my head. Did you know that just 15 minutes quality time outside every day can improve your mental health and wellbeing. It's so worth making the effort and for those of us who suffer from mental health 15 minutes a day is achievable. In a short time you will fall in love with those special moments and they will grow and grow until you feel mentally able to spend more time in the great outdoors. I know making that first step out the door can be almost impossible, believe me I DO, especially at the moment. But try it. No phone, just you and the outdoors. A perfect relationship. #GetOutside#mind#mentalhealth#mentalhealthawareness#onedayatatime#anxiety#depression#healthymind#healthybody#osmaps#ordnancesurvey