I have periods of time where my faith is on point and I am doing everything a ‘good’ Muslim should be doing. And when I do practice aspects of my faith properly it feels amazing. I can’t even start putting into words how elated I feel, there is this feeling of beauty and serenity that overcomes my soul and at that point I feel so at peace. I feel so good about myself and feel closer to my God. I don’t feel any shame in calling Him ‘my God’ because I have actually made the effort to reach out to Him, and I believe that if I take even just one step towards Him, He will take a thousand more towards my soul. It is absolutely indescribable how one prayer can make me feel. I have had some really low points this year and every time I have turned to my faith for hope and guidance, I have felt almost lighter and as if a huge burden has been lifted off. I am also guilty of letting go of my faith as soon as things start to get a little better for me. I have been blessed immensely this year, I have alhamdulillah gotten everything I have asked for and instead of being grateful I have shunned my faith and I feel absolutely terrible for doing so. A few years back I was practicing properly, I was praying on time, staying away from things/people that would deter me from staying on the right path, I would attend events that would help increase my faith, overall I was just a nicer, better person. I am so proud of who I was and what I managed to achieve during the time I was practicing properly. But now it is like I have completely forgotten who I was, I have let go of all those things that made me…well me. I want to be that person again and to that I need to find all those pieces of myself that I have lost along the way and who better to help me than God? My imaan is a constant work in progress.... #islam#muslim#muslimah#britishmuslim#modesty#hijabi#hijab#modestfashion#struggleofamuslim#muslimstruggles#hijabistruggles
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I’m definitely of the kind that reaches out for junk food when I catch the cold. I know I need more wholesome foods to increase my immunity and to heal quicker, but still, I keep reaching for the junk.
And same with iman. When I’m low, I do know I SHOULD do this, do that. But I keep reaching for the bad choices or simply the choices that keep taking me farther away from worship... deeper into this negative cycle.
For example, on Friday, I missed all my prayers except Fajr. Reason: ‘life’ happened. I was stressed, multitasking, responding to emergencies, and was in a new setting.
There was a moment when I could have totally locked the door, placed a note saying I will be back in 5, and pray in the back room. There was an opportunity and on a usual day, I would take it in a heartbeat. It’s easy. There is nothing to think about. It’s literally 5 minutes. Get it done and keep doing ‘life.’
But when I get into this bad cycle, I seriously have to talk a whole TED talk to get myself off the seat. But hey I had time to do an Insta LIVE. The shame... __________________________________________
But I have to say this saying isn’t always true. We sin everyday. And still run back to Allah for the joy of worship. It’s the mindset. Will I let sin drag me along or will I proactively find the way out?
This went on sale today!
Looking forward to checking this out as it would be awesome to rep this for many reasons:
1. Cuz it would help normalize hijab in sports and thats incredible...Nike has made a massive statement with this product and that should be acknowledged and applauded.
2. It would keep me from wrecking all my existing hijabs when i play soccer and stuff...also cuz I ruin everything eventually, haha
3. Having something sport specific would be supes convenient!
Drawbacks are that it seems a little pricey, but could be worth it...i'll let y'all know!