First full 8 week challenge complete ✔️✔️
I did this challenge for me. I wanted to prove that I could do it. I’m now a firm believer that you can anything you put your mind to. All my personal goals which I thought were impossible and I had given up on. I’ve been able to achieve. Things I failed at for years. Being the size I was I felt like a failure and I felt like an embarrassment. Where I once was ashamed, I am now finally content with how I look. Flaws and all and that’s a big thing for me. I could never imagine going back to the unmotivated & unhealthy lifestyle i was once living. Because of training, my health and my happiness has improved dramatically.
Being laughed at behind my back & judged when i was at my biggest years ago was extremely painful. But I used that and pushed hard to better myself in all aspects. Now over 30 kilos down. So thanks pal because you fed me the fuel that I needed for the fire to burn 🙋🏼♀️ This is the last post I’ll do about this stuff as I am finally healthy and I am happy. I have nothing more to prove to myself. I am content but I’ll never stop improving. Happiness truly starts with you. You need to do it for yourself. Whatever makes you happy. No one else can do it for you!! Never let anyone get in the way or try stop you! I’m not posting this for likes or anything. I am just hoping it encourages others to find their true happiness.
I hear all the time that at home workouts don’t work & I’m calling BS! They only don’t work if YOU don’t work! 👊🏾 .
These pictures you see below were brought to you by home workouts that I’m able to do in my kids playroom! YUP! I’ve done some that are 25 minutes & some that are 60 minutes! I’ve done high intensity workouts, I’m currently doing a workout program that includes weights, sliders and resistance bands! You see if it wasn’t for these at home workouts only God knows where I would be. Probably still on couch, eating, binge watching some show .. for real y’all! .
I’m tired of the excuses: ⏱ I don’t have time ⚽️ My kids do this, that, and THISSSS 👨🏾 MY husband is blah blah blah
STOPPPPPPP ITTTT!! I may sound like your favorite B word right now but sometimes you need that 👋🏾 across your face to wake the hell up! Let your excuse be your REASON girl!! Stop searching... here is your proof babe!! Let me help you!! Gahhhhh!! .
As always said out of a butt load of love! But for real send me a message babe, let’s figure this out together 😘
Pushed to exhaustion! And I want more!🥊💯
Yesterday I had a cheat day. A really good one! Wednesday’s are my day off but I was bored so I went to the gym for some lifting! I don’t even know myself anymore 😁😎
Day 60!! Today my personal trainer @autumncalabrese said something today that stuck to me.
Persistence will get you there, but Consistency will keep you there.
I’ve thought about that all day. A lot of people tell me, You’re still working out?! You’re still on a “diet”?. Well, the thing is, this has become my life. I AM OBSESSED! I am obsessed with my health and fitness. I feel amazing, I feel confident, I am Positive , I am Happy ,I am Healthy, and I feel FIT! And that’s important to me. Bc that’s what makes me feel good and that’s what important. Happy Mom + Happy Wife+ Healthy Mom + Looking good= Happy Life!!😆 #my80dayobsession#80dayobsession#dixgetsobsessed#mommahasgoals#momgoals#healthymom#fitmom#girlmom#boymom#fitmomsclub#day60#obsessedaf#motivatedaf
Through the eyes of someone with BED
This is the speaker box where I purchase the food for my binge. The voice comes on the box and asks, “What can I get you?” In my head I am screaming, “nothing. You can’t get me anything. I do not need to do this. I am better than this. I know this is bad. Turn me away.” But the words that leave my mouth are a number, a size, a quantity followed by a big sigh and guilty feeling.
This is the line I wait in to be handed that paper bag containing the tools I utilize to cause myself pain. For the duration of time waiting for my turn at the window I am overcome with various emotions, feelings and frustrations. An internal battle ensues between the addict side of my brain and the reason side of my brain. Almost as if I have the cartoon Angel and Devil on my shoulders telling me what I should do and why.
This is the empty corner of an empty parking lot that I hide in to binge. No one around, but embarrassment in every direction.
This is the steering wheel I lay my head onto and cry after completing my binge and the feelings of guilt, shame, embarrassment, anger and frustration take over and explode like an emotional volcano call for help.
This is the mirror that I stare into after a binge and engage in a constant stream of negative self-talk. Looking directly into the eyes of the person I blame for my actions and weakness.
This is the trash can that I chew and spit into after a binge in order to punish myself further but with the disguise that I am “being good” or “making progress”
Binge eating is often times associated with a need to regain or feel in control. When you are overwhelmed in your life with stress, sadness, depression or anxiety you tend to feel like your life is out of your control and you are just along for the ride. Even though you know you feel like complete shit after you engage in a binge and you know that it is bad and unhealthy behavior, but you know that the bad feeling, the shit feeling you get after the binge is 100% because of you and no outside sources or problems.
It does not feel good. It does not make sense. It is a war zone. It is a struggle.
It is NOT the end.
Entrepreneurship is spending a few years of your life like most people won't, so you can spend the rest of your life like most people can't. .
The thing about my choice is I'm spending that time hustling doing something I LOVE. It lights a serious fire for me everytime a message comes through saying I helped someone stand taller today, I helped someone overcome a fear, I helped someone take control of their own choices and life..! .
So late nights and early mornings aren't a sacrifice to building my empire when I know I had a hand in the lives changing around me.
Would you spend a few years hustling to live a life of freedom?? If that's a no brainer to you, we want you in our tribe.💕 ✌️ .
Day 60 🎉
Myself and the ladies in my bootcamp have made it to DAY 60!! 💪🏼😀
That’s worth celebrating 🎈
Has it been easy!?
But it has been such an amazing process.
Starting this program I went in with lots of doubts; doubts about my abilities to do the program, doubts about the hour long 🕕workouts and doubts about finishing it!
So making it this far in this journey is a big friggin deal🙌🏼 and I’m so proud of myself and all my bootcampers for pushing through, dropping the excuses 👊🏼and SHOWING UP FOR THEMSELVES!!! 😍
It’s not just physical changes that happen in my bootcamps it’s the mental ones 🤯 and those are the most important 😜
12 days post show #PhysiqueUpdate . 1kg up from the stage weight, but keeping things under control and feeling great!!! Currently thinking about entering the @musclecontestinternational in Ireland in April 😈 Let’s see if I can improve my condition from Royal London Pro in the next 3 weeks 💪
Gearing up for a double session at the gym tonight! Fueling up! I don’t know bout you all but if I have a date with the gym....I tend to stay super motivated with my eating. Becoming obsessed with fueling my body with nothing but CLEAN food for my work outs! Motivation is 💯 today! I was also pondering how much money we save eating this way. No need for a giant grocery list. No need for countless recipes, and no need for so much time and energy. Eating clean is way cheaper AND super simple if you allow your mind to start craving foods like this 😋#motivatedaf#youcantstopme#cleaneating#wholefoods#broccolipureesoup#chickenperfection#sweetpotatofries
When people tell me I "can't" do something, or look at me and my choices as "unrealistic", I'm okay with that. .
Why? Because those people aren't MY people. My people will always stand beside me and my wildest visions and tell me to go after whatever lights my passion on fire. To keep going no matter how crazy, because hard work does not go unrewarded in life.
When I wanted to lose 50 lbs by working out in my living room, my people knew it wouldnt be easy but they cheered me on.
When I said I was going to pay it forward and become a coach and quit my job within one year to be full-time at home, they knew it was a big goal, but didn't try to convince me not to. And because of my people, I succeeded at both of those massive goals!!
Life is too short to get stuck in the negative everyday and people telling you to stay small. Know that if you want something, you CAN have it, you may just need to get out of whatever negative circle is holding you back so you can grow BIG.
Step out of that circle, life begins outside of it. #goafteryourdreams#findyourpeople#payingitforward
Some highlights from the past week:
Connected with like minded fitness pros💪🏻
Ate about 50 fish tacos.
Drank too much wine.
Haven’t worked out in seven days. Not a highlight just the truth.
Soaked in beautiful views.
Got inspired af.
Identified my weaknesses.
Accepted my insecurities.
I hear from so many women that struggle with allowing their fears, insecurities and excuses from keeping them from doing the things that will allow them to: lose fat, transform their bodies, better their relationships with food and exercise and level up their lifestyle.
It’s a bunch of bs! You can overcome that and start DOING YOU✌🏻
This week I will be sharing why I felt insecure on my trip and how I got past these icky feelings to my newsletter peeps.
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It’s hard, but hard isn’t impossible.
Sumo squats were my most hated squat. NEVER!! did I think I would be busting them out with 30lbs weights.
I mean, I used to cry because I would be winded going up the stairs.
It took a lot to get to this point, the journey has been tough and zero perfect. But the victories along the way have been worth it.
But the best part is helping other women conquer their own victories.
My virtual gym ladies are becoming more confident and losing inches and most importantly challenging their limits. .
March is almost over. And I’m not a summer body focuser but summer is coming. It’s not to late to hit that goal. If you need help, the right tools, a support system, let’s chat.
We might be exactly what you need.💗✌🏽
Why do we shy away from real talk, from critical analysis, from uncomfortable conversations? Besides the obvious reasons of these just being flat out unenjoyable (although I challenge this mindset, true growth comes from objectively experiencing these types of interactions with an open mind but I digress), society these days places weight in the squeaky wheel and not what the wheel is actually squeaking about. We complain, we bitch, we point fingers, we get offended... all because we REACT. We no longer take the time to OBJECTIVELY UNDERSTAND and analyze the message and instead focus on certain words and not context or we allow our preconceived judgments of where the information is coming from blind us to the root of the message being shared. If something truly does come up that you feel compelled to pursue, approach it from a view of bettering your knowledge and growth and HAVE THAT CONVERSATION. Talk, listen, understand, you don’t have to agree but for the love of god STOP REACTING AND BE PRODUCTIVE! Think with a purpose. #feedyourwhy#knowledgeispower#beanadult#stopthestupidity#motivatedaf#intelligenceisdying
Don’t forget to stretch! I can’t believe how stretching has made such a big impact. I always thought it was overrated but I don’t go home in pain anymore and when I do my 10k runs I start off so much faster and easier thanks to stretching and warmup. Who would have thunk it 🤷♂️
Lunch time work/chat/planning date with my awesome friend @christinafitmom .
I love that we are on a mission to make positive change in our lives and in the lives of others. .
We are just busy mama's, trust we had to break a lot during our chat to help our kiddos lol. But we are still focusing on our mission.
I can't wait to see you in person my friend❤✌ and to met the little nugget who is still in the oven 😁😍