#transformationtuesday is back and I’m just going to leave this right here. Probably my around my heaviest to my lowest...so 336ish to 172lbs. Not just a healthier body, but a healthier mindset...I can look at myself now and not pick myself apart brutally like before...I even like my reflection most days. I love watching my muscles become more defined. I love pushing myself in the gym! This has not been easy and there are still days where I’m pushing myself not to #bingeeat or pushing myself to mentally keep positive about this journey. Today is a day in which I keep having to look at myself and say...muscles and health or a bag of Doritos, French onion dip, a whole pizza and all the sweets...yes I k ow what balance is, but when you suffer from binge eating...and your in that mindset of eat eat eat...there is no balance and no rhyme or reason as to why...I won’t destroy my progress with one meal or one crazy day, but I’ll destroy my mindset. I’ll feel horrible for letting myself get to the point of no control...I’ll feel ashamed. That’s my balance...a healthy mindset and view of my mental state. I do a lot of praying on days like today...strength and self control don’t come without seeking and asking. Here I am, still on the wagon and still liking my reflection...#fitfam#fitmom#fitmama#fitwife#fitbassist#fitnessmotivation#fightingbingeeating#wegotthis#YOUgotthis#healthystuff#weightlossjourney#fitnessjourney#momswithtattoos#momswholift#ketotribe#fighttogether
Weird #facetofacefriday edition tonight! The left was while devouring wings (which is what I’m doing tomorrow!) and the right was like 2 seconds ago...about -163lbs difference, give or take! A lot of hard work. I’ve been kind of bummed lately because that darn scale isn’t moving like I want it...so I upped my calories and I’m getting ready to cut Atkins bars and replacing it with delicious protein...let me know your favorite low/no carb proteins....that are not crazy in the calorie count either...it’s a lot! I’m fighting for my sanity and for my body and health every day. Learning a lot the way. Coming from #bingeeating and #bodydysmorphia to working out 3-5x a week and not hating myself every time I look in the mirror! Not crushing my emotions with 4000 calories (which is most likely what I could have consumed daily)...it’s a battle, but freedom from the prison of your own body is well worth the fight! Don’t wait anymore to start your journey...you Can do it...it’s just takes consistency and determination! #fitfam#fitwife#fitmama#fitmom#fitbassist#ketotribe#worththefight#youcandoit#fitnesscommunity#loveyou#momswholift#momswithtattoos#fitnessmotivation#fitnessjourney#weightlossjourney#healthystuff
Big show tonight! @waywardsonband @adamicofficial @eastwood_official_ are going to be jamming all night at The Vine in Clinton, IN! If you don’t know is, or the other two amazing bands, you should check us all out!! #fitbassist#waywardsonband#playing#jammingforthelord
I missed #transformationtuesday yesterday; so, I’m partaking in #wowzerswednesday ! -160lbs give or take...the picture on the left was me in the hottest summer ever...chasing my very active roommate on a getaway weekend and begging to just go sit in our cold room! I was prolly near my heaviest weight and undoubtedly the most unhealthy I’d ever been. I look back on that weekend and feel remorse that I was unable to physically do much. Being so limited in your body is almost like being imprisoned. I STILL hate the outdoors...and part of me wonders if it’s conditioned in my brain. I don’t mind it...but I wanted to do so much that weekend that I physically couldn’t. Winded, hot, and just sloooow. The right is me at 177lbs. Being “thin”, (I don’t consider myself so...and that’s me being kind to myself...body dysmorphia farts with your moms and emotions and I have a hard time seeing and believing things some days...it’s so much better now tho). Has really given me a new lease to life! I can run, and dance, and do ANYTHING...now! I rock climb...I drag my butt up fake walls with my own strength! BIG deal! I chase my babies and airplane them and run after them all day now...I feel free. Free from bondage of myself. Food addiction, binge eating, and body dysmorphia are all constant struggles, but thankfully with this transformation has come comfort, grace, and a new love and appreciation for this body! It’s never too late to start folks...get out there and squash them goals! #fitfam#fitmama#fitmom#fitwife#fitbassist#loveyourself#starttoday#getit#dothis#squash#youareloved#youareworthit#mentalhealth#spiritualhealth#growth#gainz#weightlossjourney#weightlosstransformation#fitnessjourney#fitnessmotivation
Guys, let’s talk about #bodydysmorphia for a sec...I have lost 160 lbs throughout my whole weightloss journey. Because my brain is mean and stupid...I literally had to ask my husband if he could see the difference in these two pictures...which are probably about 70-90lbs in difference. Because my brain is stupid, I literally don’t see much of a difference even though my husband said there is a clear difference. This morning in the mirror, I saw no difference. I really have to tell my thoughts and brain that I have lost 160lbs there is a difference and all my hard work HAS paid off...it’s a constant mental battle! With the strength and hope I draw from Jesus, I can overcome it! I do overcome it! Fight for you mental and physical health! Getting up in front of 100s or people and really putting your heart and soul out while being in a band can be soooo hard. But it’s a passion of mine! To lead people in crazy, face melting worship is the best feeling ever...I don’t have time@to worry about my weight and let it stop me mentally and physically! Fighting this fight is worth EVERYTHING! #fitmama#fitmom#fitfam#fitwife#fitbassist#weightlossjourney#battlingdysmorphia#yougotthis#youAREworthit#mentalhealth#fitnessjourney#weightlosstransformation#weightlossjourney#waywardson#heartscry
Sooooo....#facetofacefriday is here...can I call it #backfatfriday ?! 😂😂 -157 lbs and that poor horse! This trip I took with @michweb7 was an amazing, fun get away...how ever it was a billion degrees and I was extremely obese and hated outdoors! It was never fair to my Room Room on this trip because I literally just couldn’t do things because of my size. This was prolly the most embarrassing day I’d had in a long time. I physically couldn’t pull myself on to this stupid horse, so they got me a milk crate, which I broke standing on it because of my weight and gouged my foot and it was bleeding and it was so embarrassing. Then, they had to got and get a hay bail for my to stand on. Literally the single most horrifying moment of my adult life...now...I hate horses anyways, but I could ride a horse all day if I trusted them...which I don’t. They are terribly scary creatures. There were a few other embarrassing moments this amazing weekend for the sheer fact that my weight was not working with the activity and the heat.
Fast forward to now. I loveish being outside(I still kind of hate the outdoors), I rock climb, I hike, I walk briskly in parks...Chelle, I say after you pop that wonderful babe, we have a redo... :) Keep going. Even if you’re afraid...you’re impatient...whatever...get going! Start now...you literally have nothing to lose but the weight. What you gain from losing weight FAR outweighs the struggles and the frustrations. You ARE worth feeling healthy and strong! #fitfam#fitmom#fitwife#fitmama#fitbassist#waywardson#keepgoing#getstarted#youAREworthit#yougotthis#fitnessjourney#fitnessmotivation#weightlossjourney#healthystuff#healthandstuff#loseit#bestfriend#roomroom#neboIL#heartlandlodge
I was tagged by my girl @icandothissaidthefatgirl
1. I play bass guitar in 2 bands. A worship band similar to Bethel called Hearts Cry; and a progressive rocky alternative band called @waywardsonband Wayward Son!
2. I have lost 157 lbs naturally with diet and exercise!
3. I love hard and am very loud...like get asked to quiet down by random adults...I’m 30
4. I am a teacher of 5th grade dollbabes.
5.i have An amazing husband, Joshua, and two wonderfully perfect crazy children, Isaiah who is three, and Waverley who is one!
6. I love Jesus fiercely, I don’t care who knows it. Because of his love, I try my hardest to love everyone as hard as he loves me!
7. I love to travel! Hawaii is my absolute favorite place in the entire world!
8. I love to lift heavy and rock climb!
9. I know every word to the movie the Crow and also to the movie Nightmare Before Christmas! There are many other movies that I know every word to but those are just the two that pop out of my head!
10. I love Marvel, I hate DC. Unless were talking about DC villains… They’re OK. I hate captain America, I hate Iron Man… I love X-Men!