Oh hey! 🙋🏼 welcome to my new page! Just to let you know a little about me. My name is Laura, I’m 23 and a stay at home mum to two beautiful children, Mia (2) 👧🏼 and William (1) 👶🏼
I live on 10 acres in Victoria’s Yarra valley, my partner Daniel and I rent the property off his parents and have 23 sheep and a dog (missy) 🐶
If you met me, you’d think I had a pretty fabulous life, which really, I do. We own two properties, one in Noosa, Queensland and another in Chirnside Park, Victoria. Later this year we will be moving to Queensland for 4 months to take a break for our family - I know how amaze balls 🙏🏼🌴 But what you don’t see and what the facts of my life don’t show is that I’m a bat shit crazy, mentally fucked up mess ✌🏼 I see a psychologist and psychiatrist weekly, I take anti depressants and swing between thinking I’m absolutely fine to not wanting to exist at all. I’ve self diagnosed myself with depression, anxiety, bipolar, Aspergers or high functioning autism, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Borderline Personality Disorder just to name a few... if I’m honest, I tick about 70% of the boxes for all of them - so you can see what I mean by a mental case 👍🏼😊 When I finally came to a place of accepting that my behaviours, feelings and actions were causing my life to spiral in a chaotic mess affecting myself and those I love I begun to search for answers, for what could be wrong, for help. For those suffering mental illness, as I’ve discovered, help is expensive, hard to find, the right advice or course of action for you is a maze of dead end, turn back, dead end, turn right, dead end try left and at times you just want to give up because trying to get better is harder than dealing with being unwell.
I’ve created this page to share my experiences with those that are perhaps going through something similar to me - to reach out to those who have been here and have gotten better (we would all LOVE your advice) and to post ideas, thoughts and suggestions about things that have helped me.
So here starts a 12 month journey for me and whoever chooses to come along on a road to leading a full life.
I’ll explain later why I’ve chosen “full” 😉
The last few months have been intense. Being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder made so much sense but it also left me completely confused about every emotion and thought I had. Was this me or was it Bipolar? All day. It was impossible to navigate who I was.
In January, I hit rock bottom. And I’ve slowly tried to claw myself back up. Two weeks ago, after a two week long hypomanic episode, my Lithium dose was increased.
For the past week, I’ve felt like I had my life back. I feel like I’m finally pulling it together even when things are tough. ⭐️ It’s insane what medication can do when it’s necessary.
So I’m celebrating with bullet journaling, Heartland, and a beer! 🤫
YOU DON’T NEED TO “BE SICK ENOUGH,” or “LOOK THIN ENOUGH” TO BE WORTHY OF TREATMENT AND A JOURNEY TO RECOVERY FROM AN EATING DISORDER. That actually goes for any mental illness. If you think you need help, please seek it. If your family and friends think you need help, please consider and take their concerns seriously. You don’t need to look emaciated or be orthostatic or fit any type of criteria except for a willingness to begin treatment for an eating disorder.
It's almost time for Mental Rescue Society's Annual Event... THE GREAT STAIR CLIMB 2018!! 🏃♂️
👉 REGISTRATION STARTS Monday (March 26th 2018) 😁 Stay Tuned for details about how to sign up! 💚
Hello everyone, I wanted to share an article that I wrote a couple months ago. I pitched it to CSULA University Times, but it was too long for them. I was supposed to cut it into sections, but grad school is way too intense right now for me add anything else into my agenda. Hope you like it:) Link in bio.
So today was okay, tomorrow I’m getting back into my exercise so I’m excited for that since I haven’t been able to do it the past 3 days. I cleaned and finished up homework. I have to go to my mothers tomorrow and I’m really not looking forward to that but I need to face it and hopefully her and my stepfather will leave me alone because they both make me very uncomfortable. My arms are itchy which sucks because of healing and my toes are killing me but I lost 2 pounds when I thought I was gaining. I’m really hoping this entire weekend is nice so I don’t get upset and it doesn’t ruin next week for me!! Bright side is, I’m probably having a sleepover with an old friend soon and I’m happy about that. Hope everybody had a good day.
Worrying about why everyone is being promoted or whatever and I'm still here. Do they think I can't do the job because of my illness? This isn't a new thought I've been wondering this for years. I just can't take this job anymore. I need an advancement at my job site at least. I need a reason to stay.
I try my hardest to do my job well, to care when others don't and most of all to keep my outside stress outside of work as much as I can.
Why am I still here? #bipolardisorder#mentalillness#mentalhealthawareness#bringchange2mind#workissues
Please don’t be that person who makes it seem like you have someone’s back, but then goes off and back stabs them. Be genuine in your compliments and character. Nobody likes a false friend and they eventually get caught.
“The difference between appreciation and flattery? That is simple. One is sincere and the other insincere. One comes from the heart out; the other from the teeth out. One is unselfish; the other selfish. One is universally admired; the other universally condemned.” -Dale Carnegie
🔸Everytime you feel that your life is a huge mess, don't worry because the universe is meant to be a chaos. We can't control everything around us, there are so little things that we can actually control and I'll explain you why:
◽In thermodynamics, entropy is commonly associated with the amount of order, disorder, or chaos in a thermodynamic system.
Entropy and disorder also have associations with equilibrium. Technically, entropy, from this perspective, is defined as a thermodynamic property which serves as a measure of how close a system is to equilibrium — that is, to perfect internal disorder. But the higher the entropy the greater the disorder.
Also the second law of thermodynamics, as famously enunciated by Rudolf Clausius in 1865, states thats
“The entropy of the universe tends to a maximum.”
Thus, if entropy is associated with disorder and if the entropy of the universe is headed towards maximal entropy, then many are often puzzled as to the nature of the "ordering" process and operation of evolution in relation to Clausius' most famous version of the second law, which states that the universe is headed towards maximal “disorder”. The laws of thermodynamics seem to dictate that nature should inexorably degenerate toward a state of greater disorder, greater entropy. Yet all around us we see magnificent structures—galaxies, cells, ecosystems, human beings—that have all somehow managed to assemble themselves.” ⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆⬆
🔸This law touched me really deep, it's always in my head and I see it around me everyday. So keep going and enjoy the mess.
Hey everyone! If y'all would take a moment and read this I'd appreciate it!
So on March 30th is bipolar awareness day and I'd like to publicly talk about my own struggles with bipolar and provide some awareness about what life is like with bipolar. So for the next week I'll be talking about different aspects of bipolar and providing a place for anyone to ask questions. Please feel free to comment or DM me any questions you have. This upcoming week will be a time for misconceptions to be erased and for bipolar disorder to become less of a mystery.
At a quick glance, bipolar disorder is characterized by extreme highs and extreme lows that last for anywhere between days to months. For every 50 people, 1 of them have bipolar disorder which makes it exceedingly common. Inside of bipolar disorder, there are three subtypes: type 1, type 2, and unspecified. Bipolar type 1 is primarily the extreme high, mania, mixed with some extreme low, depression. Bipolar type 2 is the opposite where it's mainly depression mixed with some mania. In my case it's unspecified bipolar disorder which means that I don't fit into either type 1 or type 2.
Bipolar is a diverse disorder that is unfortunately shrouded in mystery and that's why the posts for the next several days. Thank you all for reading and I hope this demystifies bipolar disorder!
I bought this to read going for fun/a research project per request of a prof. I have never before been afraid to read a book, but I guess there's a first time for everything.
I find myself craving the stability of permanence in a world where only impermanence exists.
Change is coming, always. ❤️ I’m looking to work with some different brands (clothing and anything else), if you have a favorite company you believe in please tag them below so I can check them out! 📷 @danielle.cree
Please follow me: -@aloyogaclub
I’ve had a shitty ass day (thanks bipolar) but I still made it to the gym! Go me! I’m going through some irritable hypomania which is not fun, to say the least, but I’m not letting it get me down.