In just a few days it should be bigger than #christmas for me. To be honest, I'm having a lot of trouble with it. I've been going through the motions of getting psyched up for it but underneath I'm honestly dreading it, which if you knew me, you would know that is ridiculously out of character. My license plate is THEJEDI, in my office is a life sized #yoda , & I have #jedi symbols #tattooed down my back. .
We had so much fun experiencing #theforceawakens together & talking about all the speculation after it. We even excitedly agreed to name our new puppy Rey 🐶 #reythebrittany . I'm just having a lot of trouble getting into it. It feels hollow & the joy is missing. At this point I haven't made any plans to go yet. These aren't stories I'm telling myself either, feeding negativity. Like I said, I'm really trying to be excited & to be positive! I actually thought if I voiced it here, was open about it, I might get past it. #lostfriends#starwars#thelastjedi