3/20/2018 This is my best friend @sunflowersally! 😄 I always love spending time with her and listening to her struggles and her journey with God. She has been through so much and is still growing. She has a kind and caring heart, and she is full of enthusiasm and passion for God. Her passion for God is something I admire because she can get so passionate to the point of being aggressive. Her tiny little mustard seed was planted long ago and now her faith is continuously growing in you. May you continue to watch over my dear friend and love her unconditionally forever more and faithfully as you do, God. #365days#Godisgood#mybestfriend#SistersinChristForever
3/19/2018 I love to build things using my hands, whether it be origami, knitting, puzzles, putting together furniture, arts and crafts, or this metal 3D figure. When I need to just relax and do something for fun, this is one of the things I love to do in my free time. Thank God for the spirit and life he has given me and blessed me with. "I can do all things with Christ." #365days#Godisgood#hobbies#ferriswheel
Day 42 & 43 of 365 Days of Recovery
Finding it a bit easier to do two days in a row unless anything significant has happened, which it hasnt. Im back to doing my day to day battling which I still need to work on.
Cos, my goodness, sometimes it feels overwhelming to do all the stuff that self care is to me.
Balancing that with freelance/self motivated work can be a bit of a confusing mess
Sometimes I really struggle with fitting in even 10 mins of mindfulness which I know doesnt get rid of my anxiety but does help keep the perspective I need. I need to keep the flat in order because untidiness makes my head feel untidy and looking after my family is really important to me. (Its where my usually overthinking can be useful especially when it comes to food shopping and meal plans. Which I forgot to do this week 😣) Dug also requires at least one walk a day and sometimes two now that spring is bringing lighter mornings. And the exercise does help me!
There just seems a lot to do and Im feeling knackered just from the basics!
So Im taking another proactive step. Ive been introduced to Bullet Journalling recently and Im trying to get that to work with me and my head and also make it not such a stress or just another task to do! It is pretty helpful to put all my thoughts in one place as and when they come and keep a track of my achievementJust a shame I cant make it as pretty as a lot of journals I see out there!!
(Stickers are from @theblurtfoundation Llama Buddy Box and I may just venture out for a stencil at some point!)
Ive also done a self referral for some local talking therapy. Even though I have a brilliant psychiatrist on my side, I always feel he deals with the big problems and what I need is more help with the day to day and developing maybe a kinder routine in my life. Even though Ive been feeling so much better, I want to build on the recovery Ive made and not just let it waver.
• basic. • bliss. • beauty. ——> re-learning what it means to love....myself spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. Fasting because there was a time (and even now) I’ve struggled with disordered eating. Bingeing. Purging. Bulimia. Starving. Borderline anorexic. For me, fasting is a way to truly honour myself spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally....I begin with praying and lessen the amount of food intake a few days before just enough to get my body ready for an extreme lack of food water and coffee intake (because coffee is my life lol). It’s been a two.5 year process to get to here and normally done around the change of season (spring time now!).....if my body allows me to complete the fast then that’s wonderful...if not...im okay with that too. Truly fasting means not consuming any water or food...and each person does it a little differently. 2.5 years ago my fasts were 4 days either before or after the first day of the new season... I allowed my body tea (no honey) coffee and the odd time coconut water if I was fading and/or physically active. If I eat, I won’t punish myself for it; instead I eat a super small amount of food and eat it slowly....thinking of when I purposely hurt my body by denying myself food...I broke my way of thinking towards food and uncovered my discomfort and unhealthy relationship with food through counselling; that wasn’t enough until after I became pregnant with my son. I knew my relationship with food had to change. There was a little being inside of me.... I had to nourish this little being; honour the gift I had been given: to give birth. And now as my boy grows (he’s six!) I’m not fully recovered from the harm I caused to my body and disordered eating; I’m getting there day by day... I choose to live. I choose to eat. I choose me because I have him. Sharing because spirituality is important; healing is important. #healing#spirituality#bliss#beauty#bold#becausethis#basic#life#eat#fast#growth#instab#classyb#instagramposer#adventswithcc#lifegiver#firstnations#culture#honour#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorder#imokay#sober#soberlife#365days#andcounting#52weeks#clean#cleansing #💗
I’m trying to wake up at the same time everyday!
Whether I’m working or not, I am waking up at the same time to see how it effects my sleep and also how a feel upon waking.
I’ve been mixing up morning yoga, working out or both.
Safe to say I am starting to feel the benefits.
I’m also playing with when I expose myself to blue light. I’ve been looking it the science to how light helps us wake up in the morning and the effects that mobile phones have on our sleep patterns.
There are too many distractions in this world that prevent us from feeling great!